Out of Ring - Obscure Omniscience

• Main Authors: Ho Chuang, 莊禾
• Other Authors: 袁廣鳴
• Format: Others
• Language: zh-TW
• Published: 2014
• Online Access: http://ndltd.ncl.edu.tw/handle/8djmnw

碩士 === 國立臺北藝術大學 === 新媒體藝術學系碩士班 === 102 === To me, the relationship between myself and creating art has changed gradually from pursuit, expectation and imagination, to opposite juxtaposition. The creator (myself) and the creation have become like the same thing divided into two, and the two speak the same words. I have gradually adjusted my attitude for creating art until my mindset transforms my other self--my artwork--into an independent subject, and the imagined form of my work tends to blur and internalizes into an inseparable part of myself. The relationship between my work and myself has changed, and thus influences the way viewers interpret my work. This thesis, which bases its discussion on personal creative experience, is an attempt to analyze and discuss the interdependency between creating and personal life. The thesis starts from the author''s suspicious disposition that was developed during the author''s childhood. The author grew up in everything that he didn''t trust, and with the large amount of rejection, his free and open environment turned bewildering and helpless. The thesis also mentions how existentialism influenced the author during the author''s life course, causing the author to repeatedly doubt himself, to find no place for himself, and to bounce back endlessly. Reviews of my past creative conditions mainly focus on two hand-drawn animated works while other works scattered around everywhere. Although these works were not correlated ostensibly, what remained unchanged was the doubt for everything known at the time when the works were created, and that my will tried to draw back away from the center and to move toward the presumed ideal future, but couldn''t avoid the relative spiral of life of everything. If living means actively choosing not to die, then how can we cross multiple perspectives to find a standpoint which hasn''t been destroyed and in which we can place of lives? Through the proposition "out side", I assume that I draw back to a place of nothingness, outside of all relative values, without any counterpart. In the dark, I reverse my viewing so I view things from outside to inside rather than from inside to outside. And when I experience the absolute unknown in the outside world, the omniscience of my own will for the world expands at the same time. To me, my work is an open field where the longstanding foundations in my heart are destroyed one by one, leaving the nothingness that cannot be pointed out.