| Summary: | 碩士 === 東海大學 === 宗教研究所 === 98 === This study was to go into the building-up progresses which selfhood faces death events and death concept in particular periods of life by my narratives (narrative research). In this research, it used “psychosocial developmental theory” by Erik H. Erikson and “Cognitive-developmental theory ” by Jean Piaget as study framework when describing a person faces death event; then, we found out there are seven important experiences which affected self-death constructivism: “finding out a buried sparrow when children were playing” and “ a classmate’ death experience” in elementary school period made me establish a mature death concept; “younger brother and junior high school classmate’s diseases breaking out” experience bringing about self-abased, helpless, and guilty feeling; “an elder’s death and death ceremony” not only established religious death concepts – “death world’s existence” and “Samsara transmigration of souls”, but also called in question about “not talking about death” attitude which had been taught in primitive family and society; the same suspicion in “death of pet” experience took a turn to counter-revolution toward “not talking about death”; “running away from home” experience made me make off an equal sign between separation negative feelings, such as depressed and sadness , and death’s; western medical knowledge which I’ve been taught in college’s nursing education made me learn to use “love” and “Life meaning” to encounter great fear about death; however, this dealing matter had been disintegrate quickly after encountering several times of other people’s death experiences.
This research made me observe the switching processes of life meaning thoroughly. In this discovery, we could adopt Irvin D. Yalom’s statement of differentiate about the meaning to present the changing of life meaning. The original “Life meaning” had been impacted by negative feelings of death and separation; so the meaning of life suddenly became “meaningless”, even developmental psychology theory could not solve the persecution of “meaningless”. After that, self meaning of life had been upgraded to different level by way of aspiring after religious belief and understanding of “Cosmic meaning”.
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