"Brother and Father are heroes " -- the soul-searching of a Second-generation-female-mainlander concerning her Subjectivity and Identity

• Main Authors: LIu Tai-yun, 劉台雲
• Other Authors: 夏林清
• Format: Others
• Language: zh-TW
• Published: 2009
• Online Access: http://ndltd.ncl.edu.tw/handle/52167253302103130999

碩士 === 輔仁大學 === 心理學系 === 98 === Several important elements of this thesis include: (1) identity: The term can be referred as a noun the "identification", or a verb "the choice of social identification". The main idea of this text reveals "identity is a dynamic process which produces a new one by community (social) participation "; (2)subjectivity：Subjectivity is a formation of a subject. In addition to the narrative and self- identification of experiences, it pays more attention on the subject's participation and practice in the group to review himself (herself) again, jumping out social and political given bondage, to find out what the subject should be and why the subject exists. (3) gender: This text starts from an identity request. As being a "second-generation mainlanders women", I have more anxiety to identify: eldest children, Mainland China, father and uncles, war. All of them mixed together to form a "queer" or "Mulan" masculine projecting image. My inner queer leads me to explore the identity about myself. (4) nation: My identity-anxiety converting from gender to nation began from the accident “319 gun-shooting” of the President election in 2004. It triggered the confrontation between Blue and Green political two parties. It seems that I have to declare “love in Taiwan, hate in China” to get the reasonable identity here in Taiwan. (5) participatory: It is a kind of political participation by society movements. The outcome would be a knowledge involving critical and dynamic. In the meanwhile, the identity of subject will come out naturally from the participatory. I found that as we ask ourselves anxiously about what we are or who we should be, we could get more confusion accordingly. So I reviewed myself again from my exist environments. By participating social movements, dialoguing with local people and attending some group discussions, my subject and identity revealed clear and clear eventually. At the beginning of the text refers “identity” as given by political or authority tricks. It has shifted and re-defined by participatory which helped me to re-construct the image about family and nation. I would not be confined to the frame of Chineseness. By the way, the identity offered me a variety of view-angles to take my social responsibility in education about psychology and consulting work from this research. Now I am confident to recognize my existence and feel more powerful to myself.